hmm,
i have been reading somebody's blog.
and i feel damn sad for th person :/
cause that person really cant seem to see th positive side of life.
and she doesn't even bother trying.
everyone goes through stuff that are damn depressing.
but most recover while some dont.
i guess she is just one of those who cant recover.
it seriously takes loads of courage to recover.
like for me,
i think i took a few years. :X
but you couldnt see anything while i was trying so hard to recover.
cause i bothered to covered it up with a heck care and smiling face.
nobody noticed,
and everyone thought i was fine. :/
anyways,
there were deep cuts in my life too okay :D
so cheer up. ♥
i recovered but there are still scars luh.
and therefore th change in personality.
since nobody is like close to me since i was young till now,
i guess no one would be able to tell th diff.
i realised that,
in year 1,
i was like damn soft.
i cry so damn easily,
i could get hurt by mere words.
just because people who i hang around with in th past are all so nice to me.
too nice. x.x
i thought everyone was just either good or bad.
i have learnt that th world is a super scary place :/
so im tougher then before i guess.
but i still tend to use other things to cover up my feelings ._.
hais.
i think im like so emo cause im like super terrified about tmr's act.
i just cant face reality.
how can we be NCOs just after learning th slow march this tuesday?
it feel so unreal luh.
but its hitting down hard now.
im feeling damn uneasy.
i hope everything tmr is okay.
hope everything goes as i hope.
i hope i dont get to see something i dont want to see tmr.
i hope my squadmates are strong enough to congratulate others who got th position they desired,
i hope i have th strength not to cry if i dont get what i want.
i will not cry.
DEIFINITELY. :X
i dont care.
even if tears well up,
i wont cry.
i shall yawn instead.
YAWN :D
shoufong, jiayou!
you can do it. :D
put up a strong front. :/