i know its a sensitive issue.
so i decided not to put her name up here.
when ms tan told us what really happened,
i was stunned.
how could something like that happen to someone i know?
i thought it was impossible.
at that moment,
i suddenly realised how fragile and important life is.
then,
i thought how she was feeling.
then i thought,
while we were playing around and having fun,
was she crying her heart out?
i even wonder,
was she crying herself to sleep?
would she change?
for the better or the worse?
when i went across the newspaper that day to get a glimpse of what was happening,
i did notice the article but didn't really bother to read it.
i even thought 'don't these weird things happen all the time?'
little did i know that,
it actually happened to her.
the others who heard the news just stunned and emo-ed for a while.
then returned to their usual self.
it doesn't affect them at all.
i dont know why,
but im guilty somehow.
how could i not know that something this terrible happened?
after that,
i even thought myself in her situation,
school just started and i was playing around.
then suddenly i was informed of this.
i guess i would be so shocked and sad that i wouldn't be able to cry or anything.
i wonder how she is taking this.
hais T__T
this is so cruel.
when i went home to read the news (which i failed to read that day)
i felt worse.
i imagined how she would feel when she knew that a passer-by got to say the last words.
and then i imagined the scene.
it was horrible.
i decided to forget about it and read the time magazine. (yes, i do read it even though i dont like to)
i flipped it open and the first thing i saw was the bloody body of a soldier who was injured in the Libya rebellion.
it just took my imagination to a whole new level.
shall not think about it any longer and do my econs D:
but no matter where you are,
i hope you do not lose hope and realise that we are there to back you up.
no matter whether or not we were close before,
i care.
we care.
take care,
i hope recover from this soon and return as the person i knew before,
or even better.