i seriously think i dont have much emotion. :/
i wonder whether that is the reason why i cant comfort people when they are sad
or calm them down when they are angry.
i even spoil the mood when it is good ._.
there is just 2 months left. (most likely anyway)
but im not really feeling anything, except for the fact that i will miss spending time after school with squadmates crapping and all.
we wont know what is there until it is gone, i guess.
i got so used to the presence of squadmates over the last 3+ years that the stepping down part feels so unreal.
im not very good at goodbyes anyway :X
whether i really will miss you or not,
my expressions and actions are the same.
both awkward. if i really miss you,
i wouldn't be able to express myself properly,
and the end product would be awkward.
damn awkward. :/
if i wouldn't miss you at all (when i should) i would feel guilty.
like my experience with the thai buddies.
i want to try choreographing the squad's ROD dance this year.
it is my last year after all.
and i dont want to regret this year ._.
i feel like i have wasted all my time during cca hours since we stepped up.
i did not contribute to anything significant at all.
so at least for this,
i want to help :D
but i have serious dancing problems okay!
so i would need help (as much as i can get) asking freda now x)
she doesn't seem too willing. D:
hope i can gather enough help and support soon!