with my parents around,
i get the feeling that i cant breathe.
the times that i could admit were enjoyable with them from sec 1 until now can be counted with just one hand.
they treat me like a experiment product.
like seriously,
all the good stuff goes to my brother first,
then when he fails, i dont get anything at all.
then they slacken on my younger sis because she is stupid and young
i want my own studyroom,
they dont allow it.
saying i dont know how to study on my own.
they let my bro have his own studyroom.
wow, he really can study on his own -.-
dear parents,
i know when i need to study.
but now,
i think i can cope.
cant you just leave me alone?
instead of telling me not to be like my bro and pinning all hopes on me just because he fails.
nothing good ever comes put of being in the same room as you
esp when you and my sister talk.
more like shouting at each other all the time ._.
its really irritating.
and you quarrel over useless stupid stuff that only my sister would be dumb enough to think of.
havent you heard that a success is created with your own hands?
have you ever heard of a child who was forced into studying and as a result loved it?
only crazy people would anyway.
but like in books, a little encouragement and support helps.
stop asking me to study all day.
even my friends say you are crazy.
you know,
for a little freedom,
i wouldnt mind staying on my own.
but i know you would never let me.
cause you are overly protective and posessive.
please dont let me hate you more.
i really dont like to dread coming home everyday.
why cant i be like others?
anxious to go home?
or even wanting to go home for lunch just because my father is at home?
in fact, if my father was home for lunch,
i would avoid going home for lunch by all means.
i dont like going home.
not since pri 6.
it is suffocating hais T__T

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