im updating cause there is this person trying to fix the box that controls all electrical things in the house (fuse box? LOL)

and i cant go to my room cause everytime we on a wrong switch, circuit trips or something -.-

now i cant even have aircon hais T__T

i was planning to let this blog DIEEEE.

i dont think anyone will read this anyways since it has been a long time since i updated it hehe x)

i havent been feeling much emotion for the past few months so i had nothing to blog about.

uhh, i think i kind of lost touch (a bit) with my feelings.

cause i was reading this manga (I LEARNT A LOT OF THINGS FROM MANGA OKAY!)

the boy told the girl (they were small kids) ' basically, you being a good kid is no good'

'you have to play the kind of good kid adults like'

'dont get serious about anything, that way you wont get hurt either'

'let's promise never to get serious, not towards anything'

basically, the first 2 lines are kind of hard to achieve since you have to be damn double-faced.

(the guy in the manga is double faced ._. but he is quite cute also LOL)

i think after reading this, i kind of became not very serious with everything?

so i just do what i want to do,

but at the same time still do work and stuff.

i know i have been skipping squad outings and lunches recently (YES i do realise, since i go for squad outings/lunches most of the time)

but i kind of have the feeling that i am not obliged, or more rather im just plain lazy to try and attend such events anymore.

such things are all going to stop,

and from past experiences,

i realised and saw for myself that the last person who is holding/clinging on to such bonds, that will eventually fade away, will hurt the most.