My last post was in october last year ohmy.
During EOYs? Now is already mid-may.
SOOOOO fast haha.
Just came back from AYLC fac training camp.
Camp was.. kind of fun i guess.
considering i skipped like almost the whole 2nd day of the camp.
If not, i probably would be cursing and swearing by the evening on 2nd day.
But oh well :D
First day, i was like SHIT i dont know anyone in my group!
then i was like 'okay, i shall be a loner and emo for the rest of the three days'
cause i really wasnt in the mood to camp after i heard it was some selection camp.
soooo, i decided to do whatever i want during the camp LOL.
whatever i feel like anyway.
i seriously HATE camps D:
by the end of first day , i was so glad i have a reason to leave the camp the next morning HAHA.
(i am still damn happy now lah :D - never regretted skipping camp hahahahaha)
when i came back during dinner on the 2nd day,
i guess everyone seemed more friendlier compared to the night before?
maybe cause they got to know each other during the day (which i DIDNT HEHE ^^)
oh shit, im like some anti-social kid who doesnt know how to make friends.
BUT i was expecting like them to ask me why i pangseh them or something,
yet they didn't.
i was quite shocked LOL but they were like super happy to see me? i guess HAHA.
and asked if i ate already or not. (i was so touched lor hehe :D)
MY GROUP MEMBERS ARE NICE <3 hehe i love you group D1!
i mean i dont feel bonded or anything to them, just think they are damn nice people (:
so yeah, quite happy to know them.
like the kind of feeling you will get if a stranger helps you when you are in need of help.
THAT KIND.
but if they start acting all friendly with me or something, i will freak out.
okay so, LCD night.
what can I say? LOL
i really like those kind of like campfire nights those kind! REALLYYYY.
i just dont like to be part of the cheering and crazy people jumping around.
not that its not good or something HAHA actually i quite jealous lor!
how can people get so high over something as simple as hearing a song?
dont think i can achieve that. :/
cause of that, i like just stayed at the side and accompanied the not feeling well/injured people.
first, it was kathleen (she felt dizzy) then it was sheena (injured knee)
from the side, the atmosphere is REALLY REALLY nice!
can totally feel people having fun :D
so i just sat there and stared at the crowd near the stage.
its so pretty, i think i can like stare at the scene the whole night HAHA (:
i did try to get high lor!
i met chingwei and jasmine in the crowd so i joined them lor.
since i couldnt find anyone else LOL
THEY WERE DAMN HIGH!
HAHA then i tried also, just by singing the songs and jumping and clapping hands and stuff.
i tried quite hard okay! i even did the hand actions for some of the songs.
but was totally not in the mood.
somehow, i just keep wondering..
cause this was supposed to be a selection camp.
were people really high? or forcing themselves to be high cause of the selection?
from far, it may look like the whole crowd is having fun.
but really, i could see some like me.
trying hard to be high. :/
after seeing that, i just gave up and went to sit in the corner.
why should i ignore what i am feeling and follow the crowd when its not really what i feel like doing.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. so not going to do that.
so i just decided that they can kick me out for all i care.
i really dont belong in the middle of the crowd.
whateverrrrrrrrrrrr :D
thanks ken and jasmine though (: they tried really hard to make me high, esp ken hehe ^^
he even went to the extend of forcing me to clap and jump to the beat with him.
i was touched lor (second time for the day) (: really thank you.
you really made me feel like i could belong in the crowd.
cause i was so lonely that night since i didn't really know anyone and madeleine was busy zi-highing.
but i really dont deserve it bah.
i have no self-discipline and hence will not do whatever i dont feel like doing sorry. :/
hais, was thinking whether she was forcing herself to high also since she is not usually like that.
but it is ultimately her choice so i just left her to zi high with her group LOL
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE :D
i met a new friend from my group while sitting with sheena and she is WENDY :D she is damn nice too HAHAHA.
so seeeeeeeeeee. not every negative side has no bright side :D
im actually quite glad i left hehe. (:
because i sat at the side, i was able to enjoy the atmosphere better.
maybe im not really suited to be in the center of the crowd bah.
Third day, was sleeping in the hall then it started raining HEAVILY like seriously.
then cause i was sleeping near to the sides of the hall, the SUPER SUPER strong wind was blowing directly at me and i was super cold. so i woke up LOL.
really SUPER strong.
i bet if i stood up, it would have blown my sleeping bag away.
so i crawled into my sleeping bag and zipped it up HAHA like some cocoon.
in the end somebody went to shut the doors. and i could sleep in peace :D (thank you that somebody!)
BUT cause of the rain, in the morning when i went back to the homeroom to get my toiletries,
i realised i forgot to shut the windows! and my bag was right underneath the window.
so obviously it was WET and my file and the paper inside was wet too! and the towel which i hung up to dry beside my bag was also NOT dry.
so just WET. and i stupidly left the socks i wanted to wear on the table through the night too.
heng i brought extra socks :D
actually, not much on third day lah.
just asking us to reminisce, appreciate and ponder (RAPweb)
but i cant cause i missed most of the camp.
so just crapped and yeah, still dont feel like sad about breaking camp and leaving my groupmates. (sorry D1!)
gathered at the CO room for the debrief and stuff.
oh and before i forget, i want to say that i really appreciate the facs for this camp cause can tell they are making a big effort with a lot of them losing their voices. so THANK YOU! (:
Mr Zhong told us a story that made almost everyone cry i guess.
quite touching bah (: but i didnt cry LOL.
quite sad for him since he rarely gets to see his parents but this is life isn't it?
he made a choice to join RV and leave his parents so i guess this is something he has to accept.
life is unfair. i feel sorry for him, but not really my problem bah. just can say, jiayou! (:
(im really bad at consoling people sorry :/)
so yeah, thats about it for camp from my perspective :D
not like anyone is going to read this for a long LONG time since i allowed my blog to die :D
but i was bored so yeah hehe :D